| So scared to give a hug away, in fear of what it'd lead to.
So scared of my knees giving way, and falling right in love with you.
So scared of what my kisses would say, so "I like you" will have to do.
So scared of giving up my heart to someone else for so long,
When every thing in the past just turned out to be so wrong.
So for now, until I'm settled, and ready to love again
I'll just go ahead and detach myself before anything else begins…
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I’m ready to finally let go of the past. I’m ready to walk away from what once seemed so <b>“perfect”</b>. I’m ready to start anew. I’m ready to at least try.
I’m in no rush to get to my destination, so I will take baby steps to get there. <I>“love is patient, love is kind…”</I> I will overcome and trip over many hurdles, but I’ll get up and continue to run to that finish line. I will jog, walk, crawl if I have to…
Along that journey guys will come and go. But with such a high guard securing my heart, only a few, if any, will break it down and allowed in. I don’t fall into the trap of love very easily, but once I do, I only long to stay. Once I have fallen in, I give nothing but my all. Call me old fashion, but even a kiss will take you months to receive… I have had my heart broken too many times before, and as much as I’m willing to step out of this shell, I’m also very careful about the actions I take and the words I say. I don’t want to rush into anything simply to free myself of this misery. And I don’t want to mislead anyone and crush their most vulnerable and most valued treasure - their heart. I’m not one to give my trust and my heart out so freely, so if that’s what you long for, then you must wait. Only time and God will know when I am ready. But the two things that I do give out without hesitation is a smile and my friendship!
above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. - proverbs 4:30 (NIV)
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| "may day is lei day in hawaii..."
I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME! 
wow this is my first entry on xanga this year haha. just thought i'd come back for today at least. adios all |
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| "may day is lei day in hawaii..."
I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME!
wow this is my first entry on xanga this year haha. just thought i'd come back for today at least. adios all |
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| I'M SO BRAIN DEAD FROM ALL THE STUDYING AND ANSWERING ALL THE OVERWHELMING AMOUNT OF QUESTIONS FOR MY FINALS....2 DOWN...2 MORE TO GO....GOSH DARN IT I JUST WANT TO GO HOME  |
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| If i learned anything this summer, it's that WE SHOULD CHERISH LIFE AND LIVE EACH DAY LIKE IT WERE OUR LAST BECAUSE TIME IS PRECIOUS AND LIFE IS SHORT...SO DON'T TAKE ANYTHING OR ANYONE FOR GRANTED, BECAUSE WHEN THAT SOMETHING OR SOMEONE IS TAKEN FROM YOU, YOU MAY NEVER GET IT BACK. SECOND CHANCES ARE HARD TO COMEBY, so do not only search or long for the things you DON'T HAVE, but also be thankful for the things that you DO HAVE...
this summer has definitely been an eye-opener for me. with all that has happened i have been awaked to reality, which brought me closer to my family. i have learned my place in this unity: the responsibilities of being a daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, and a cousin.
mahal na mahal ko ang pamilia ko!!! |
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